Spirit Macera

So today it is exactly to weeks since I broke up with my boyfriend because he cheated on me. Now, I don’t write this to bitch about him, it’s just that it haven’t been as I thought it would be. I always thought I would be devastated if he did such a thing… i thought I would be super depressed and lock myself into my room and not eat for weeks… But it hasn’t been like that at all!

Actually it’s been like nothing has happened. I am neither more or less happy than I was with him. Sure I miss having a guy to kiss and to snuggle at night but, besides that… nothing!?! I can’t stop thinking if I really loved him or not? I mean shouldn’t I be feeling just some sort of sadness? I was sure that loosing my boyfriend would be like how “Bella” felt when “Edward” left her in “New Moon”. But I just feel empty…

But I KNOW I loved him, cause I still do, just not the same way. I don’t hate him either. I talk and texts him some times and then I sometimes gets this pangs of sadness but they never lasts for long. But it feels good talking to him though just on a friendly basis. I know that friendship after breakups usually doesn’t go well, but this might be okay… He want’s me to go with him seeing the new version of “Robin Hood” in the cinemas and I really want to go. I am just not sure if I am ready though…

Anyway, I don’t feel bad at all, and I am actually looking forward to just be single for some time now.

UH UH UH! I just gotta tell you all something else that makes me super happy! School is OVER! Or at least just for now! I only have one exam this year and one annual test and then I am DONE! That thought just makes me so happy!

And this holiday I am going to Crete, Greece, with my great friend Nina, and we are going to have a BLAST! We are going just the two of us! And then, originally, my mom and dad would take me and my boyfriend (or well now ex-) to Croatia, and now that he can’t come, I am bringing Nina with me there too! We are going to have the best of times!

Anyway even though I don’t feel that sad about my break-up, it is so nice that I have so many great friends, and a wonderful family. They support me so much, and I am so grateful. So this blog will be dedicated to them <3

Hello everybody! So we have finally got what seems to be some proper spring weather. It did take some time to get rid of all the snow, but finally spring has come to Holstebro! And not to mention so has the easter holiday!

So I’ve been looking REALLY forward to this holiday cause schools been shit even though we’ve done nothing at all… So I thought I would be using this holiday to do even less. But then something happened just last Thursday!

Okay first things first let me tell you about my (at the moment) seriously confusing love life! Well my boyfriend (or whatever I am supposed to call him now) is in this really confusing and stressful time in his life at the moment, cause his dad is really really ill :/  But well, so he figured that maybe he just wasn’t up for having a girlfriend for some time which I can totally understand! But it seems we are not really together but we are not really apart either so it’s all very confusing both for him but definitely for me too!!! Last night he came to the conclusion that he really does still want me to be his girlfriend.. But really I have  hard time to figure out if I can really trust him on that cause it seems he changes his mind according to his mood…

Anyway were was I? Oh yes! So I thought I would have a well earned (or maybe not) relaxing holiday, but then it all changed last Thursday! You see people, I have fallen in love with this gorgeous bag but I just can’t afford it, so I figured I needed a job! And as was it fate I received an email about our city church needed some choir singers. Now the job fit me PERFECTLY with what I would earn and the amount of time I had to spend on it! There seemed to be only one tiny little detail… I don’t sing that well! So I went to this rehearsal thingy and you know what? I actually got the job! So I am just ever so happy happy happy! But now I can’t really relax that much in my holiday cause I have to work almost every single day! Oh well, it is just singing so it’ll be fun and I am sure I won’t regret it as soon as I get my first paycheck.

Ok sorry for not updating in a while, a lot of things has been going on . But luckily everything’s been great! First of all ot was my bithday a week ago! Yipee!!! Which was awsome! I had a very lovely day with my parents singing the birthday song for me in the morning, and then after school my boyfriend took me to town so I could chose a present from him and his parents for myself. I ended up with a very simple but beautiful ring, some movies and a lovely deodorant! Oh and I got a CD from my folks plus a thousand kr! And I also got 300 kr from my granddad and his wife which was nice, cause I really wanted money for my birthday. You might wonder “Why would she just wan’t money?”

Well let me give you the answer! When the summerholidays arrive I wanna go travelling with one of my bestest friends! We’ll go somewhere (not sure where yet), but probably to Alanya in Turkey which would be really nice! I can’t wait! Anyways I don’t really know what to write more, so I’ll just stop here… I promise to try writing some more soon!

Hey there everyone!

Sorry I know it’s been a long time since I’ve done any updating, but when I tried a new theme it all fucked up so I’ve haven’t even been able to change it back! Luckily my father is better at computers than I so he fixed it for me (heehee)!

Anyway I’ve just had a wonderful holiday our so called winter break! I was at this holiday cottage with some of my best friends from school and we had an awesome time!

But it hasn’t really been the most healthy holiday, I’ve been eating a lot of seriously unhealthy food! I did try to compensate a bit by going to the gym but I don’t really think it has helped that much! But somehow my week of unhealthiness has totally inspired me to do better!

Okay so today I have done absolutely nothing, but I guess I kinda needed it since I’ve been busy for the entire holiday! So I was just randomly searching for good inspiration for exercises and so forth on YouTube when I saw these great videos (and NO it is not thinspiration as in pictures of very skinny people which I am seriously against!)! It was videos of girls/women who had filmed their progress week after week as they tried to loose weight! So I’ve decided to do something alike, though I won’t be posting it anywhere! I think it would be a great idea because 1) It would give some motivation to keep eating healthy and to keep exercising and 2) when you loose weight you tend not to be able to see the difference yourself. By filming it the results will be very obvious!

So people that was just a new little blog from me! I’ll try to update some more soon.

I am really in the mood for a whiney blog, since I am mad and tired, and sad because of a really shitty day, caused by school assignments, plus my period is coming which usually affect me quit a bit, PLUS I have slight hangovers today… BUT I will NOT be all whiney today! No, indeed, I will tell you about what a wonderful night I had last night!

Last night I went to my friend Camilla’s 18th birthday party at her own house! And may I say I LURVED that house! It was on a farm, the house was really big and in to plans, and we had a big part of the upper plan just for ourselves! We had a LOOOVELY dinner, with Totilla pancakes, and nachos (YUMM), and then we just partied like crazy! Hahaha, we were all drunk at 10 o clock or something! We had these really delicious drinks that tasted sooo amazing!

Camilla also really liked the present we had bought for her, which was a small bag she could use when she goes clubbing! One if the things I loved about her home was the animals! They had this really cute young german shepherd dog, and they had a giant horse, and some scottish highland cattle, and they were all tame and so cute! Actually my dream is to live in a farm just like that when I grow up!

Anyway it was a really lovely night, and I think (or hope) that Camilla had a great 18th birhtday party

HEY everybody!

Sorry about the last whiney blog, it appears that I had some kind of really really weird moodswing! But then I just spend those two days at home, and then these last couple of days I have just been SO happy!!! For no apparent reason apparently (heehee)! Anyway today is a saturday and I just came home from school. Yes you’ve heard correct. I went to school on a saturday AGAIN! But last time it was just the most pointless day, I was sooo pissed off because I didn’t learn a thing and it was just soooo boring. Today wasn’t really that interesting really it was just a regular english class, but I like the topic. Besides we weren’t many today cause a lot of my fellow classmates had to go to work or something like that, so it was actually very nice

Anyway, yesterday was my 3 and a half year day with my boyfriend, and we went to the cinema and saw the movie “Sherlock Holmes”. My expectations were not very high. People have said it was great but it just didn’t seem like the kind of movie I like really. But it was actually very funny and well made. I liked the sounds effect in it and I liked the way that whenever the movie became a little dark and scary Sherlock Holmes or Dr. Watson would say or do something really funny.

Okay if there is something I have to complain about, it would be that today my mom is going to London —- I am so not jealous… NOT. Actually I am, and the thing that sucks the most is that I am allowed to come with her, but since I have to go to school I cannot come. Damn it!

Now I will have to go, I have a social studies paper to do (YAY… not…)

Peace out! - Trine

I am truely sorry to put you through my weird moodswings again, I just feel like I have to get this out of my system…

So, I was not at school today. Why? Well, because when I woke up I just new that today would be a very bad day for going to school. I kinda felt stressed out about it though I didn’t panic about it because I knew I made a decision to stay home (usually I can’t make up my mind - should I go or not?). So after I had slept a little longer and my mom came home from work we had very much fun buying an aquarium for our to goldfish, cause the fishbowl wasn’t really big enough.

But right now my mind is kind of screwed again… I feel extremely sad and scared and I don’t know why really! I feel like I just wan’t to stay at home forever and never go out again. All I wan’t to do is just sleep and forget everything about my surroundings, and yet I just can’t fall asleep. I know I should go to school tomorrow cause I’ve been fine all day, and I think my parents would be disappointed in me if don’t go… but right now I just feel like crying, cause just the thought makes me scared.

I am also freaking out because soon I’ll go to some kind of psychiatrist because I got this thing called a panic disorders which I think I have told about before. If not it is (in my case) some apparently random panic attacks. I know going to a psychiatrist would be really good for me, but I am so fucking scared that he won’t take me seriously… And I don’t what to say to him. I don’t get these panic attacks very often, but when they do I am normally incapable of doing anything sociable for a couple of days. Getting the diagnose was really helpful though, and as my docter said I was already dealing with it before I knew what it was.

Ohh I don’t know, I should probably just stop whining, pull myself together and go to school…

So I have just finished my most dreaded day for weeks - going back to school!

Actually it wasn’t that bad! I was all happy and super fresh when I woke up even though it was reeeeeally early in the morning… Okay, I’ll admit it, it wasn’t really that early cause our first lesson wasn’t util 9.40 or something like that. Still, pretty early when considering that I have slept til 12 o’ clock every day since the holiday began :b

But believe it or not, it really wasn’t bad. We only had three lessons and most of the time I was able just to sit and relax. And it was great seeing all my classmates again, they are all very nice, even though some of us have our differences.

So, one of my new year resolutions was to pay more attention when we are having  chemistry at school, which we had today… I guess I will have to work harder on that one, cause I had a really hard time paying any attention to what the teacher said! Hahaha, I’ll just blame my friend Nina, I was sitting next to her and her new MacBook Pro !

Well anyway, I am now (strangely enough) very happy again, and I hope you are too.

Hi guys!

So this is not going to be a very happy blog I am afraid to say! First of all where the hell did christmas go? December month is almost over, and for me it hadn’t even started yet! And there are only a few days til the holiday is over which makes me very very (havn’t I told myself not to say very all the time?) … well the holidays being over makes me rather sad then…  I don’t know what is wrong with me but I wake up in the middle of night and I am totally stressed out about school! I feel like I am not ready to go back! I just feels this huge pressure and I can’t really cope with it… Anyway I had a really nice christmas eve though if you were wondering about that (probably not though) .

And today has just been really really weird! I slept for a loooong time, and then I woke up and my lovely boyfriend came unexpectedly to visit me while he had a break from work, which made me really happy! After that my mum and I went christmas shopping and I found my lovely new years dress!!! AND then after dinner my boyfriend and I went to the cinema to watch Alvin and the Chipmunks 2 which was really cute and funny (I know it is a kids movie!!! Stop bugging me!!! heehee ).

Anyway so I had a REALLY nice day and I have been SO happy the whole time! And then it was like ten o´clock and all my happiness was gone just like that! I mean WTF??? And then I started (for no apparent reason) to think of my lovely horsie I had to sell just before last summer, and I started to miss him terribly!! Ohh how I miss him! I miss the long days just grooming him and having quality time, and I miss our wild rides where he would just run wild and free over the fields with me on his back, and I would release the reins and put my arms out to the sides and just feel the wind!

Sorry about this very whiny blog (I expect my period is just around the corner… I am not even kidding!).

Anyway enjoy the rest of your holiday and be happier than me!!!

Haha just read my last blog, and discovered I need a new word for “very”! Haha I have used it A LOT!

Quotes:” It was a very very good movie. I like it very very much. First of all the graphics very good”.

Haha, somehow the word “very” sounds really weird in my head now! (God I am a nerd right now!). Anyway cheers and still: Merry Christmas