Spirit Macera

So today it is exactly to weeks since I broke up with my boyfriend because he cheated on me. Now, I don’t write this to bitch about him, it’s just that it haven’t been as I thought it would be. I always thought I would be devastated if he did such a thing… i thought I would be super depressed and lock myself into my room and not eat for weeks… But it hasn’t been like that at all!

Actually it’s been like nothing has happened. I am neither more or less happy than I was with him. Sure I miss having a guy to kiss and to snuggle at night but, besides that… nothing!?! I can’t stop thinking if I really loved him or not? I mean shouldn’t I be feeling just some sort of sadness? I was sure that loosing my boyfriend would be like how “Bella” felt when “Edward” left her in “New Moon”. But I just feel empty…

But I KNOW I loved him, cause I still do, just not the same way. I don’t hate him either. I talk and texts him some times and then I sometimes gets this pangs of sadness but they never lasts for long. But it feels good talking to him though just on a friendly basis. I know that friendship after breakups usually doesn’t go well, but this might be okay… He want’s me to go with him seeing the new version of “Robin Hood” in the cinemas and I really want to go. I am just not sure if I am ready though…

Anyway, I don’t feel bad at all, and I am actually looking forward to just be single for some time now.

UH UH UH! I just gotta tell you all something else that makes me super happy! School is OVER! Or at least just for now! I only have one exam this year and one annual test and then I am DONE! That thought just makes me so happy!

And this holiday I am going to Crete, Greece, with my great friend Nina, and we are going to have a BLAST! We are going just the two of us! And then, originally, my mom and dad would take me and my boyfriend (or well now ex-) to Croatia, and now that he can’t come, I am bringing Nina with me there too! We are going to have the best of times!

Anyway even though I don’t feel that sad about my break-up, it is so nice that I have so many great friends, and a wonderful family. They support me so much, and I am so grateful. So this blog will be dedicated to them <3